Humanity

Silently I sit here,

Legs criss-crossed,

My mind I can hear,

Pray but a wish lost,

Confusion fills my head,

Then turns to anger,

A heart full of dread,

Foul dreams make me unsanitary,

Birth of a new thought,

Aborted due to late night insanity,

Mental images too deep to explain,

On the breaking point but I refrain,

Slowly losing my ability,

But the will I quickly regain,

Sometimes I smell what Lucifer's cooking,

Walk straight into hell's kitchen,

I already know it's wrong,

But my right mind keeps slipping,

I close my eyes,

All I see is black,

Open my eyes,

I still don't see what I lack,

Don't really care about that anymore,

I anticipate that day,

When I can fly through a closed door,

I want to get away from it all,

Back to when I was nine having a ball,

Realize we are more than we see,

Come out of your body and see the man to be,

Similarities with me unlikely,

I guarantee,

At times I wish to step out of this revolving door...

Of humanity...

Humanity has been good to me upon these short days.

But Lord knows I await the next phase.