Should I or Should I Not?

Should I give up on this life trying?
Maybe I should give up crying,
Pouring my tears out to my mother as I kneel?
Or should I speak to my God of whom I cannot see nor feel?
Should I or Should I Not?

My mother, one of my influences & acts as my personal ladder,
She'll give me a kiss, tell me it'll be okay & help me climb to what I most desire;
Anyone against me I pay no mind - they're just flesh & bone,
Because I'm in a different category - I stand alone.
Should I or Should I Not?

Now you know who influences me - God, myself & my mother;
I will strive for the best, above the rest, there will be no other;
At the end of the day I still want your opinion,
Possibly I'll give up, it's a touch decision.
Should I or Should I Not?