Presidential Pondering [thanks CH]

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Hmm... I sit alone in my home and ponder my thoughts that wander in my dome,

as they are free to roam to some place far unknown... 24/7

(p.s- I love alliteration)

Some stressful, some evil, some good ...or even great.

Nonetheless, the meaning of life is man's number one most unanswerable thought...

...at least in my mind.

But then again... I'm weird like that.

You'd have to die to find an answer.

But hey.... Here's some food for thought.

{-The Offbeat Human-}

Starpoint Beach

Off the coast goes a lost love

Less likely to boast

An ego that was erased

As our wine glasses toast,

To a much better life I will see,

More of a man I will be,

Caught in your seductive web,

I try to flee,

Because your former lover

Happily left the woman standing in front of me

That my eyes see,

See I try not to recall

What those falling pictures,

Crawling scriptures,

Rushing down my wall

Wanted me to see,

But alas,

I'm free from this fairytale picture,

Inhale, exhale, taste the elixir,

Poison sipped,

Choices slipped,

Consciousness quit,

Later on to be awakened by a hard screech,

The language of scarred speech

Heard remarkably off the coast of Starpoint Beach.

Strawberry Field

My eyes kept on the lady in the sky,
But the moment her face turns grey,
These raindrops tend to fall from her cry,

She wants to hear me play,
My guitar every single day,
Melodies strummed,
Sounding out the thoughts I can't seem to say,

Sometimes her love smiles to frighten,
Leaving a trail of trippy visions,
All the scared feelings seem to heighten,
As I put up my tall heavy shield,
Only to let my guard down,
And wake up in a strawberry field,

Loss of all hope loves to get the best of me,
With my life I would elope,
Simply to figure out its fate & destiny,
While my mind has left to balance the uneven,
Thinking up the right path to her Garden of Eden

I'm stranded in uncharted lands, and left astray to heal.

Licking my wounds with my head in my hands,

I live to dream in this strawberry field.

Ante Up

The hunger of my heart beats on E,
As the starve hits,
So does the lost love which finds me,
I never knew I could be so heartless,
But the negative that tears me down,
Brings forth a new sunrise to stand me up,

I think it's time to ante up...

I'm guilty of a past lie,
Way passed the past's eye,
Wiping away my last cry,
Waving to the good - hello, hi,
Shouting at the bad my shallow goodbye,
Is it I whom needs to gamble away this sigh?

I think it's time to ante up...

When my foundation begins to rumble,
I realize it's the most high doing the shaking,
No words come out the mouth,
My thoughts simply mumble,
When life hands me hand-me-downs,
My own experiences lend me a helping hand-me-up,

I think it's time to ante up...

Life's a gamble that's worth the bet.

With the choice of life or death in the palm of my hand,

I choose life.

It's just sometimes difficult to live out.

Tale Of The Hidden Gem

Hidden amongst my inner fears,

My worries are hung from a line and left to dry,

As I forcefully squeeze them,

Outcomes the dirty water portrayed as these earthly tears,

Throwing spiteful jabs at the question of why,

Shielded by these everlasting layers of confusion is I,

(I begin to chip away the bad covering the good in me.

Once finished, it will all become clear to me.)

As my weaknesses are chipped away,

Slipped away is the grasp of my sins gift-wrapped for today,

Trapped in my own tree,

Branches ripped off, bark peeled back,

Lonely he only seeks to be free,

Reaching out for freedom to be handed right back,

(My covering is almost gone as I patiently stand.

All the negativity begins to sink slowly as does quicksand.)

Time's so patient yet moves incredibly fast,

The mind seems vacant,

I cherish each thought as if it were my last,

Recalling most of the vast past,

Buried within is the man,

Head of State and beyond his class,

(Completely in the nude, it appears my covering has left.

It is now on me to take my first steps.)

When that star in the sky decides not to shoot,

I fall hard trying to find that sturdy floor,

For this beautiful lie reveals its ugly truth,

Speaking misleading words heard to be ignored,

Spared are the aired emotions wished not to be exhaled anymore,

(I am now able to shine bright and progress forward.

The better part of me is now for the world to see.)

Despite the bad I encounter,

I was created for greatness.

I may only appear as that bare rock in the grass,

But to me I will always be that hidden gem living in forever's past.

Destination: Supernova

The good, the bad,
How could I forget it?
When sad add a tad bit of glad,
Split decisions keeping me level-headed,
When words don't know the half,
Thoughts begin to gas me up unleaded,

Atop it all,
Then I start sinking down,
Bound to fall,
Short of breath from the drown,
Lost at sea for all to see,
Embarrassment forced to yield,
Stopped at the waterfall of confidence so deep,

The sleep so visible,
But the dreams so stealthy,
Providing a profound visual,
Is the magical brain playing tricks on me,
And I had to find the true self,
Apparently I've been living the wrong me,

The emotions take a tumble,
Hear it kerplunk,
The soul screams its final rumble,
For a wasted heart is simply love drunk,
Vomiting its care for the world,
Blacking out from the luminous supernova,
Self-destructing due to the beautiful hangover...

Supernova: A rare celestial phenomenon involving the explosion of most of the material in a star.

I was born a star.

But I must undergo a supernova, 

So that I'll explode into the superstar I'm meant to be.

I'm on a mission, heckled by pit stops, in route to my destination.

Abysmal Atmosphere

Take hold of the atmosphere,

Breathe in the tears of the sky,

Exhale the beautiful day so clear,

All concerns left in the yesterday,

For now is the moment to live,

Anticipating for what the future may say,

Left in the dust to rust,

Thus the love beyond lust,

Gliding above the endless seas,

Arriving upon opportunities to seize,

Taking control of more than the eye sees,

Atmospheric pressures exceeding what one believes,

Burdened by the highs and lows,

Swiftly goes the joy happiness shows,

Such a gorgeous world,

Heckled are those,

Possessing a pessimistic and negative swirl,

Stirring up a mix of ugly glows,

Masked are the vast reaches of the atmosphere,

For the sky is not the limit,

Up, up, and away is the cheer,

Chanting melodies of the soul found within it,

A battle lost but victory I will soon get,

Glaring down on the Earth,

As a blank stare plagues the face appearing moonlit...

They say the sky's the limit,

But I wish to surpass it.

Ascending through the atmosphere,

I hope to one day rest in peace with the stars.

Opposites Alike

Never ending strings are tied,

Placing loops around my better half,
Leaving behind tainted tears previously cried,
Revealing stern expressions forming a laugh,
Silently shouting thoughts into a mental mic,
Thinks the man who attracts all opposites alike,


Innocent cries slowly heard, 
Hear the baby fuss,
Falling short of grace from the Word,
I'm like Holy dirt or maybe angel dust,
Meaningless meanness struck by polite,
Enlightened is the man stuck in opposites alike,


Walking backwards into eternity,
Finding it's lost secrets,
Searching for what I'll learn to be,
Simply draining my destiny through life's faucets,
Stranded in the middle of everywhere,
Not quite,
Will the negative pass me there,
Arriving amongst the same opposites alike...


Shocking emotions electrocute until I'm unsurprised,
Burning fuses of intelligence, igniting stupidity,
As time decides to cut off all delights,
Testing depths of my clever and it's fluidity,
Streaming my gloomy daze into bright nights,
Shining down upon the disgraced face,
For opposites are alike...

Opposites attract, and therefore are joined as one.

They're so different, yet alike in every way.

They strengthen each other's weaknesses.

Opposites are destined to be together, until the ending of infinity has been discovered.

From Insomnia With Love

Insomnia secretly seduces me,
Dangling a wakeful night in the face of clueless me,
A weakened heart strained by the grip,
Gasped by the grasp,
She holds firmly to cold air that slips from the lips,

Reigning thoughts take control of my inside,
Dripping drops of delirium upon my mind,
The brain almost ready for departure,
Stranded in a frenzy due to its new stalker,

I had fallen for her from the start,
Mesmerized by her fine art,
Sculpting sleeplessness,
The love is addressed,
Suppressed by her sneakiness,

Our relationship is a strong one,
The bond constricted by the long run,
While I toss and turn,
Hoping to enter my dreams before her song's sung,

So beautiful yet her spell so homely,
Keeping me company but her love kills slowly,
Until Insomnia softly reads the murder she wrote me...

Conscious Conscience

My conscience comes alive,
Then comes short of breath from the die,
That's why I dream in the sky,
Pleading to set me free,
But it's better when the loving is high,
Fallen attempts bleed these tears,
Whispering words of failure unto my ears...

My conscience comes alive,
Someone's bound to here my cry,
Until then I'll write my poetry why,
Stand motionless in the cold,
Await my heart to hit lukewarm,
Physically young but the mind old,
Aged from the darkest storm...

My conscience comes alive,
Speechless and sleepless,
Thoughts preach evil words,
Public eyes will never read this,
Words so cursed,
They should actually bleep this,
Brain almost empty,
Lost fuel from the leakage...

My conscience comes alive,
Blinded by the light,
Yet I still have a vision,
Place this life upon a canvas,
Paint a picture how I'm living,
Drifting off to a fantasy land,
Where rests a plan to count helpless sheep,
Jumped atop the globe but I never felt this leap,
The sound of peace is now heard,
Shift my mind out of drive,
Parked is the thought embracing the good word...

But then...

My conscience comes alive...

The Cosmos

I live with the cosmos,

Dreaming aloud with my eyes closed,

This is so real, there's no fakin',

Astounded by the cosmos like I'm Carl Sagan

Cosmos, This is,

The Cosmos,

And God knows,

How everything goes

Hit the books - and I'm paid,

Half upfront, Half upon mastering,

Are you really that insane?

Last thing you should ask the king,

Never ever referencing is what I mean,

I clean ya scene just like ammonia,

Walking on a dream seems just like I'm on ya,

Travel around the world with the green stankonia,

Outkast, you outlast all things about the past,

Yell it out loud,

Can you hear me know,

Hear it from the ground on up to the clouds,

Still it makes no sound like the angels in sight,

Despite the fact that I just might,

Toss my sins in a pot, stir it up, call it "what I like",

Time leaves me ticked off,

How you fig, smoke a cig when I'm pissed off,

And I'm gone...

I live with the cosmos,

Dreaming aloud with my eyes closed,

This is so real, there's no fakin',

Astounded by the cosmos like I'm Carl Sagan

Cosmos, This is,

The Cosmos,

And God knows,

How everything goes

I

Tie up my shoes,

Slip knot, top notch,

What else I have to lose,

I hop scotch my words to the end of time,

Tic toc, clock stop, times up,

Guns never pop,

Lungs never flop,

Inhale the essence,

Letter L keep my high as a blessing,

Not the white clouds but I'll be sure to reign,

Not quite loud, but I scream, I'm insane,

Not a rapper but I write a lot,

Never writer's block,

And I use my mind to plot,

Even if it is all I got,

I be sky high call it space time,

You can check the hater list,

You can't find my face call it face-find,

Like my shoe strings tied so I lace mine,

So you think you are the king,

But I'm better call it ace high,

Cuz I...

I live with the cosmos,

Dreaming aloud with my eyes closed,

This is so real, there's no fakin',

Astounded by the cosmos like I'm Carl Sagan

Cosmos, This is,

The Cosmos,

And God knows,

How everything goes

This is completely just for fun. I was definitely bored and decide to write this.

Apparently I'm not a rapper; I'm a poet.

So it may be horrible, but don't clown me. Lol

I was just messing around!

For those of you who don't know who Carl Sagan is, he was an incredible astronomer.

He was a genius with a profound mind.

He fell in love with the cosmos.

He was amazed by God's creations: Earth, The Planets,

Stars, Galaxies, The Universe.

But, I believe he was an atheist.

I absolutely love his quotes, videos, documentaries, etc.

I am a fan of his.

So, in a way, this is my dedication to him.

Sound of Silence

Silence is too loud,
Music used as my ear plugs,
Reality too much of a crowd,
Dreams psychedelic like drugs,
The mind,
A powerful thing to waste,
Already lost mine,
Face numb, kind of hard to taste,

Can you hear the silence?
......................................

Trapped within a daze,
But the weather's clear,
The sleepless days,
But the rebel's here,
Head spinning out of control,
And what's whack is,
It's difficult to stay bold,
And keep my mind on its axis,

Can you hear the silence?

......................................

Can you hear my heart beat,
I can't, where did the love go,
Previous visions on repeat,
Try to keep my highs above low,
The world so complex,
Waiting to read my success story,
I just can't seem to find the book yet,

Can you hear the silence?

......................................

Pray to shed light on these dark thoughts,
Tempted by sin so the soul halts,
The true emotions,
Will they ever see,
Try to live life to the fullest,
But sometimes my spirit hits E,

Can you hear the silence?

......................................

Oh no...

I'm losing sight,

The top so far away,

The will...

A mile away,

I fall short,

Hitting the ground,

Staring right back at the sky so grey,

The heartbeat slows,

Then stops to bring forth a new day...

Can you hear the silence?

......................................

"My life is a dream, in which my mind supplies a body

and five senses to experience actuality." ~ Joshua Stowers

The Insane

A little crazy much,
Embrace the other side of life,
Simply through insanity's touch,
Step my foot in the door,
And fall face forward,
In timeless space I adore,
Hearing your thoughts,
As you speak to me your every word...

Reality is beneath me,
Exploring infinity as I climb,
The light so bright, so white,
I edge it up in every line,
Ready to leave, so ready to go,
Help put my spirit at ease,
You kick the chair,
With my neck I'll play the rope,
Immediately brought back to my senses,
As the universe magnetically paints my world,
Filling heartless emotions with hope,
Right before the ceremony commences,
Leaving trails of faith formerly swept to sidelines,
Silently sitting out of bounds like the benches...

Awaiting the forever long sensation,
Call it intoxication proclamation,
While mental images race ahead,
Avoiding a crash,
Paving the road to brain dead,
About to lose it for happiness to be found,
Scared to think because delirium has come around...

Guess I'll use my left this time,

Because it appears that I'm losing my right mind,

Craziness in its simplest form,
Last statement for your mind to soar,
I've come face to face with my true self...
In a breathtaking parallel universe once before...

This is...

The Insane...

Open your mind & broaden your imagination.
Do not be afraid, you just might like it.
Or
You may fall in a ditch of insanity like me.

W4L

Poetry in mind,
Veins filled with morphine,
Sex in line,
Inhale the whore scene,
Try not to hit rock bottom,
And see how the floor's clean,
Rather breathe the insane,
Mind set on fire,
Thoughts draped with propane,
One strike of a match,
Imagination leaking,
Music used as the patch,
Words heaven sent,
Pray to get the catch,
The serpent teases,
Kick him so he'll hiss off,
Evil ideas abandon me pissed off,
Prepared for lift off,
Blinded by what's before me,
So reality I switch off,
Stranded on an island,
Surrounded by water,
Winds incredibly violent,
One of a kind sorta,
Tempted to approach the border,
Cross the line before I'm out,
Head full of doubt so the face pouts,
Chin rests in the hand,
Eyes try to close,
Some images bland,
I try to doze,
Too weak to stand,
Lost,
Positivity buried in sand,
Searching for the thrill of it,
Never mind me,
I'm weird for the hell of it...

W4L= Weird 4 Life

I don't suffer from insanity.

I enjoy every second of it.

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Wild Blue Yonder

Why, oh why,

Must I live to die,

Hysteria teases the mind,

Far away my thoughts shy,

Freedom of hatred,

View the train ahead,

All aboard the locomotive,

Destination heaven,

The informed arrival,

Of the unforsaken,

Newly seen beings,

The mistaken humility,

Dreams as quote clouds,

As the cause of my tranquility,

Star dust trickling down my robe,

Facial expressions broadly immense,

Overshadowing the intense view of the globe,

Clock hands patiently ticking,

Every thirty minutes for an episode,

The hope I keep gripping,

What's left to hold,

The make-up artist of the brain,

Awaits immortal men upon the threshold,

Leading to a heartfelt beat,

Seeking sounds waves for frequency,

Frequently resulting in supreme indecency,

Peaks of the most high,

Greets unworldly acts beyond the close sky,

A fall from bountiful clouds,

Monitoring the length of the dive,

Hesitation of fear struck in the night,

Deprivation of a tear cried in life,

Now or forever hold your peace,

The buy of the century,

Housed delusions bring forth the illusions,

Yearning for departure of the leash,

As the present presents itself with confusion,

Using what's gained from losing for soothing,

Spectacular intact pillars,

Created to stand tall,

For all blinded givers,

Breaching holes through infinity,

Revealing life's mystery,

Simply through my affinity,

High grade attraction,

Forms nourishment for high grade distraction,

Sigh in darkness,

Soon the doom will remove shade from my gloom,

The negative shall plan to squander,

Less stress earned from permanent rest,

Dispatching my arrow into the wild blue yonder...

Mayday

Gracefully gathering thoughts together,

Pressure from above the stormy weather,

Hence the sharpness of my clever,

Drifting down slowly like a few feathers,

Unsteady from the mental tremors,

In response the brain severs,

The never's,

Said success for me couldn't be,

Quite possibly,

I see through thick & thin easily,

Dare not dwell on a loss,

The cerebrum feeds off eternal chaos,

When the sight is lost,

As the snow falls,

Juggle the anguish and toss,

A mile high in the sky,

Bitten but save me from the frost,

Barrel away from the beryl gray,

To a new day,

Where the sun has more to say,

A place when time doesn't delay,

Nor does a friend decide to betray,

But lay by your side,

Instead of dashing behind a tree to hide,

But glide,

On the surface of eminence,

A period of high rank,

Seeing a virgin soul in innocence,

Prepare to walk the plank,

Simply when taken advantage of,

The push and the shove,

Comprising of,

More than the eye can see,

In addition to love from the beloved,

Now hover,

Unto the plateau,

Of forever never-ending,

Anonymously suspending,

In-air ideas to grow,

To show,

Just as to display,

But lay low,

As surprise attacks lead to dismay,

Surrender it all,

Some of what they say,

The distress calls,

So my spirit yells Mayday, Mayday, Mayday...

Mayday derives from the French venez m'aider or m'aidez meaning "come (and) help me"

Celestial Clone

The eyelids shut,
Now reopened but,
Altered state of mind,
Lost for words yet I don't mind,
Ascend past the atmosphere above,
Shining pure white as a dove,
Traveling to my friend Mr. Sun,
I stare right back at him,
Like through the barrel of a gun,
What I have lived is now done,
Paused for a moment,
Escape the hands of time for once,
The cost for the lonesome,
My mind displayed in clumps,
Chopped from the troublesome,
My brain's emission equals shots of rum,
Left dumbfounded,
A lie confounded,
In paranormal space,
My existence is mounted,
For all to see,
Pride small as a bee,
Depth of mind long as a tree,
Wings too tired to flap,
Awaiting reality in its entirety,
Falling from a star as I tap,
The top of rain clouds,
Bringing moisture to my clarity,
Falling from the sky,
I am no longer supernatural,
Now viewing the world through a human's eye,
A dream to most,
But to me super factual,
I dare not wish to be just another,
Rather be clear than appear a color,
Back to a land,
Where it's hard for a man to stand,
Unless he sells his most prized possession,
My soul is what keeps my forward progression,
Time has begun,
Never slowed down for some,
Return of a spirit to his body,
Away from it all,
Socially exclusive making me snobby,
It is now over,
Ended but a trip still splendid,
A separate category,
In my own zone,
An adventure explained,
But I didn't read the story,
Alone in my own dome,
Given has been the glory,
Still I feel like just another clone...

Night's End

Leave all our hopelessness aside,

Hop atop a cloud,

You're in for a ride,

My spirit shrieks shrill cries,

Ready to break out of the sighs,

All the worry piled high inside,

Leaping through numerous dimensions,

One life to another,

Speak of faith,

I drop multiple mentions,

Only to pick them right back up,

Lies leave you intentionally annoyed,

The spite I stack up,

Despite the fact,

I prefer to stay still,

Lay still in my bed,

Thoughts too heavy to bear,

So I bow my head,

Mind stuck on this shelf,

The skull spins out of control,

So the sanity rids itself,

Then I bid myself,

Auction me off,

Christ will take me himself,

Watch me fall,

The pedestal so far gone,

A thousand years to hear it all,

Until I hit the ground,

No sound will play from the song,

Believe what I read so I trust,

Time to float home,

Shall we return to dust?

Subtract life's fear to see her plus,

The sum of it all will soon surface,

Survival of the fittest is a must,

She'll break you down,

But never truly hurt us,

Lessons learned,

Blessings earned,

Imagination concerned,

The world appeared void,

Yet it still turned,

A voice unheard,

A dream deferred,

An unread word nor heard,

Vision a bit blurred,

Addicted to silence,

I'm tense,

The dye of the sky prints,

Coloring my face until time bends,

Awaiting my night's end,

Farewell to all,

My good-bye's I send...

Humanity

Silently I sit here,

Legs criss-crossed,

My mind I can hear,

Pray but a wish lost,

Confusion fills my head,

Then turns to anger,

A heart full of dread,

Foul dreams make me unsanitary,

Birth of a new thought,

Aborted due to late night insanity,

Mental images too deep to explain,

On the breaking point but I refrain,

Slowly losing my ability,

But the will I quickly regain,

Sometimes I smell what Lucifer's cooking,

Walk straight into hell's kitchen,

I already know it's wrong,

But my right mind keeps slipping,

I close my eyes,

All I see is black,

Open my eyes,

I still don't see what I lack,

Don't really care about that anymore,

I anticipate that day,

When I can fly through a closed door,

I want to get away from it all,

Back to when I was nine having a ball,

Realize we are more than we see,

Come out of your body and see the man to be,

Similarities with me unlikely,

I guarantee,

At times I wish to step out of this revolving door...

Of humanity...

Humanity has been good to me upon these short days.

But Lord knows I await the next phase.

Better Days

I throw my thoughts in one dish,

Like Jambalaya,

With all the letter A's,

These nights will run right by ya,

I admit I've seen much better days,

Let's kill the fame,

Forget being a star,

Jump in Timbaland's lane,

I'll show you Who I Are,

Some scenes seem dreary,

Dreams of real-life pain,

I wipe my eye's; they appear teary,

Saw an incoming life-bump

So I hopped,

Should have stood still like a stump,

I'm shocked,

Like I saw an angel is disguise,

I'd push it in it's back,

Just to see if it flies to the skies,

Look to my left,

What is left?

My eyesight is tight,

So I look to my right,

I can see high up while looking down,

As if I were on a flight,

I pound my chest,

North is the direction of my head,

Keep forward and never head West,

Or else you'll be left for dead,

My sin I will shed off,

18 holes to fall in like golf,

Forget par,

My swing is fine as a needle,

You fly high as a bird,

But I'll be sure to shoot an eagle,

This close to a hole-in-one,

Heart so warm,

Face so cold,

I am the frozen one,

Each heartbeat slightly breaks the ice,

Melting away my fears,

Never mind luxuries,

The ice clears; the necessities will suffice,

The eyes are introduced,

I met her gaze,

The awkward is reproduced,

I've seen better days...